Satisfied

Sooo..i don't think people will read this, but i don't care, cause it lets me process things. booyah! today was a really chilled day-something that i needed for quite some time. these past few weeks have been just empty and bland..and i mean empty and bland by stating my emotions. i just feel a little bit lost, and in need to be brought back into fun, happy days. does that even make sense? i had traveled to bhutan 2 weeks ago, and ever since being back..i feel alone? maybe it's because i had to leave a beautiful country, and say goodbye to a new friendship that was shaped along the course of the trip in bhutan. okay, let me tell you, bhutan was probably the most beautiful country ever, like ever. and i mean that. it's just so authentic, like its been un-touched from civilization..urban areas, that kind of sort. we went hiking for three days, so much fun, but really painful at the same time. being in high elevation and steeep steeeeep climbs i wasn't mentally prepared at first, but then it became fun...until we had to go downhill! let me explain...me being really dumb hadn't realized that it was better to buy hiking boots half a size bigger so that your toes don't jam against the tip of the shoe. yeah, i found that out quite soon after our first day going downhill. my toes hurt, real bad. especially my big toes. we walked 6-7 hours on our first day, and then we get told that we'll walk like 7 hours the next day. i was like alright, i think my poor little toesies can handle it. HA, SYKE! the 7 hour walk became 9 hours..yeah, only 9. it was pretty much all downhill and my poor toes were killing me. like the feeling of my toenails about to be ripped off the skin. yep. pretty much. i was seriously SO happy to see our campsite...hallelujah! the third day..it was ALL down hill, like steep steep. i'm telling you, like if you don't watch the trail, you're pretty much gunna fall off the cliff. no biggie. so they brought a horse...but mind you, it wasn't like an american big sturdy horse..no, no, it was a horse but the size of a pony. which neighed like the whole way..and while getting on, there wasn't a proper saddle..so i almost fell off a couple of times. it sounds like i'm whining(ha, i just read this over..and it REALLY sounds like i am whining, sorry guys, but i'm too lazy to change this)..but really, it was a great adventure. i was so thankful for grandpa who was steering the horse and walking with us all the way to our bus.(by the way, grandpa was only 55...but looked much older..oops) sorry this is so long, and i basically just lost track of what i originally was gunna write about in this blog. to make things short and sweet about bhutan..it was the best vacation ever and on my previous post, on the list that i made, it says that i wish to return to bhutan sometime and stay for at least a month. so i'm gunna make it happen. yes. and see my dear friend jamyang!

wow, but what i was originally gunna write about was that after going to church today and small groups..i feel content with myself. it's been awhile that i've felt this feeling, and i'm glad it's back. i just wish for no more gloomy days, and enjoy what i have until it's all gunna be gone. i need to appreciate. i do. i really do. i need to appreciate family, friends, God, school, but in a sense, i feel like i take that all for granted. forgive me. i am thankful, i am. i'm really blessed and cannot thank the Lord enough for the life that He has given me. so basically what i've been wanting to say in this long, drawn out blog is that God is good. God is great. He is my strength, my guide. I am forever thankful. Amen to that, friendsies.